God answered my prayers in big ways. I don’t know how or when, but I suddenly realized that my faith was growing massively. Faith in prayer is no longer an issue.
It’s been a rough, but really good couple of months. I’ve been spending quite a bit of this time reading the bible, augmenting it with various books, and watching video podcasts of Mark Driscoll and Craig Groeschel. Mostly though, I’ve spent the time trying to remember and relearn who Christ is. There definitely were aspects of His life I just didn’t get. I had fallen into the trap of not thinking about his humanness. Things like He laughed, He cried, He felt anxiety, He was tempted…basically everything we go through on a regular basis. I knew all of this, but I suppose I essentially dismissed it for the most part. Dismissed it with his Divinity. Unfortunately, when focusing too much on his Divinity…you miss so much about who He was when He walked this Earth in human form. No, He didn’t sin, but He DID have the same emotions and struggles that many of us have today.
I’m not sure I’ve ever truly appreciated Jesus being human or understood exactly what it meant. This made the idea that Jesus “struggled” or “Jesus understands” much harder to accept. I took for granted the rejection He’d have felt while being crucified…that even his best friends denied Him.
I get it now…well, more than I ever have before any way.
