I forced myself to come up with a prayer request during small group…with the idea that maybe it’d be a step towards putting down my pride.
And now, I entirely regret that I asked for it….and I’m trying to figure out why. I asked for prayer for my knee as it’s been acting up and I’m going through the fun process of trying to be “approved” to see the orthopaedic surgeon again. A week later…when it came time to ask for prayer requests…someone asked how the knee was…and I just shrugged and essentially said it’s fine. They asked if it was healed and I said no…and well, I think I was almost asked if I believed if God could heal it or not. There are other reasons that I’m not happy about the idea of having it repeatedly brought up week after week…but I don’t feel like going into that.
And…I’m not sure I do. And if He could, I’m not sure He would…(and why would He?)
So, it’s made me question what I think/believe about “miracles” and…well, it’s clear that my scientific mind has a very hard time with this concept.
I can accept most if not all of the “miracles” of Moses…and do consider them miracles even though they can be explained by science. For example, the whole parting the Red Sea has been scientifically explained. I still consider it a miracle though due to the timing aspect. I don’t believe it to be a mere coincidence or lucky break that the wind came just at the appropriate time.
The “miracle” of Joshua and Jericho…has also been scientifically explained. But again, I consider this a miracle as how would Joshua have gotten the idea to march around the walled city in step/formation as a way to bring down the walls on his own.
But that brings me to the miracles of Jesus…where not all (okay, not sure if any really) have been explained scientifically. So, I have a really hard time with those.
I think many things are miraculous though…I think that the world of medicine and how far we’ve come in really just a short time…is a miracle. I think the body itself is a miracle…just how it all works together is amazing to me.
So, I guess I’m more likely to pray that God would guide a doctor’s hand or give a doctor wisdom to diagnose and treat, then for God to pray for healing. So the idea that “God would heal my knee” when I haven’t seen a doctor or anything is just…silly to me.
