I’m starting to think my time at church3 is approaching an end, but not for the usual reasons that prompted me to leave other churches. I just really wonder how much further I can go with these people with the major differences between us.
With each sermon or “small group” night, I find it harder and harder to keep my mouth shut..and I like these people enough that I don’t want to explode. Last Sunday’s was a kicker as it was about sex. I agreed with certain portions, but obviously disagreed with others.
In a lot of ways, it’s hard for me to be myself around these people because I’m trying not to be obnoxiously irreligious around them out of respect.
A friend of mine recently “disowned” any of his friends that publically stated their support for Obama, citing that he questioned how they could have ever been friends with such differences in core beliefs. I didn’t understand that at first, but I think I do now. I see the wall between myself and the rest of these people very clearly. With almost every conversation. I really like these people, but question how deep can the friendships be with such fundamental differences?
Someone pointed out to me Sunday night that I seemed to be more open than they’ve seen previously…well, much of that has to do with that venue being a more social venue than the other times they’ve seen me. A time when I didn’t feel like I had to be as guarded as there was nothing religious going on (well, there would be…but I planned on leaving before that time). That has me questioning quite a bit.
I just don’t know.
