As I sat in tonight’s “small group” meeting…I think I came to a realization that I’ve been on the verge of for a while now. I’m agnostic. I don’t think it’s possible to truly KNOW that there is a God.
I’m not sure what led me to this, I don’t think it was truly related to the discussion tonight. But moreso related to my own personal processing and pondering things I was stating.
Tonight though, I found myself having a much harder time than previous weeks not just immediately saying anything that came to my mind. I am trying very hard though to remain respectful as I am a guest there.
Maybe it was hearing how fervently the rest of these people believe Romans 3…and biting my tongue and not erupting at the whole idea of “how can you be so certain there is a god?!”
I…am just not certain it’s possible for me to be convinced enough anymore to go back to that life. I’m sure some would say “well, that’s where faith comes in”…. I’m sorry, to me faith is becoming more and more like the point where you have to check logic and reason…and just “believe”! I…just can’t do that, and it’s becoming more and more clear to me.
So, I’m agnostic.
