Okay, so, I suppose I can go into a bit of why I might be so incredibly angry at God (supposing there is one). This forum is anonymous enough that it’s easier to explain.
I was a Christian from 1990 until November 2005. The last year of being a Christian was probably the hardest year in my life ever. I made a career change from IT, to Law Enforcement…this is something I’ve always felt called to do. I never did it many years ago as I had too many silly fears that got in the way (didn’t know how I’d feel about firing a pistol; wasn’t sure about driving lights/sirens; didn’t know how I’d handle myself in an emergency situation or while having to be around blood or death). I mostly just didn’t think I had the mettle. Well, in the years 2000-2001, I answered all of those 3 things but still didn’t think I was worthy of such an honorable calling. This dream was also not something I had ever shared with anyone ever.
