I am not sure why, but it seems I have become increasingly bitter when it comes to anything to do with Christianity or the church. I almost want to laugh when I hear someone say “I’m a Christian.” And I want to laugh for various reasons. I want to laugh because I know there are people who consider themselves this when they’ve never set foot within a church….they have a generalized belief in God and Christ, etc. I want to laugh because they have no clue what the bible says. At all. Then there are those that call themselves Christian and involve themselves in the church. Some I think actually do this to hide from reality or hide from themselves. Then others, who seem to be somewhat true to themselves and still call themselves Christian. I actually pity them, and often look at them with wonder. Unfortunately, now hearing someone profess that they are a Christian causes me to pity them, and also makes me want to just laugh at them.
There are a few exceptions as far as the pity/laughing go. My friend BB and his wife KB…who since I left the church, are still my friends. I actually respect them, because I see genuineness in all of what they do, and in their friendship. I wish they still were in VA. I get to at least see them when I see my parents in Ohio as they now live about 10 minutes from my parents. BB really tried to help me find my way the same way he has….and he has no idea how much I appreciate the effort he put in.
I recently moved into a new apartment…and as I unpack, I find a bunch of “Christian” books, fiction/nonfiction and music. Right now, I have no clue what to do with any of it…so all of it is just taking up space. Part of me just wants to throw it all away. But I seriously hate throwing stuff away that is in every other way just fine, just completely useless to me. I’d freecycle it or put it all on Craigslist, but I really just don’t have the time or the patience to deal with that. Especially if someone decided they wanted to “save” me!
I had an interesting conversation with a coworker recently…about Stryper. I almost fell over laughing to find out how he absolutely loves/loved their music. It prompted a conversation about the “Christian music industry” and what it used to be like, etc. I actually find “Christian artists” more annoying than Christians themselves.
